Incredibly weird, extremely lonely.

The first time I know how does it feel like...when the person you're going out with doesn't give you a damn for the whole night.

I tried to start some topic, but I can't get any response. So I sit there and watch my friend busying with her phone for an hour. Actually she has been ignored me for more than one hour.

I swear I would never do this to my friend. Coz I know how shit it feel like. 

I felt incredibly lonely and I dun wanna go home alone. I went to a new wine bar near my place. I leave so earlier and I didn't even order a drink coz this bar isn't what I'm looking for. I don't feel familiar with the whole environment so I can't feel safe when I stayed in. 

Then I went to a old wine bar. I saw the boss Andreas. He said hi to me. Loca gave me a glass of wine he likes the most which is super good. Alyssa brought me some pea and cracker. Matteo shared his beer and his story with me. Everybody treated me so good. 

Yea...I need someone to talk with me. That's the only thing I want yesterday night, no clubbing, no dancing, no crazy flirting, just talk. 

I feel so good last night but at the same time I feel sad for myself.